For the past year and a half, actually probably more. But specifically the past year and a half, I have been lying to myself as to who I truly am. I have been also allowing others to tell me who I am. Who I should be. Who I should want to be. I feel like it was necessary for things to happen this way to reach the mindset I have reached where I am not a complete ass to people and I try my best to so everything out if love instead of hate like I did in my past.
However, where I am at now is that I am past the point where I needed to lie to myself and am ready to figure out who I am in every way. What I believe on every subject. Where my passions lay and where my beliefs grow.
I need to constantly remind myself of MY beliefs. Stay strong in who I am, and not allow myself to be so influenced. I know who I am. I am who I am. My thoughts and feelings are valid. My beliefs are true. Here is what I have discovered, some of which aren't new or recently unrepressed.
•I am most definitely bisexual.
•Meat us murder.
•My government is tainted and corrupt and I will never trust anything they do.
•I am a hopeless romantic.
•Animal liberation.
•I know there is a God out there. I don't know which version is correct but I cannot deny the spiritual events that have happened to me and the spiritual experiences I have had. It is like trying to deny that water turns to ice if cold enough.
•Everything happens for a reason.
•There is someone made for everyone. Even if you find them on your death bed, you will find them.
•The world is messed up. A revolution is in order.
•The people in this world are messed up. It's time we cared less about ourselves and more about others.
•Everyone is dealing with something. If you don't think you are, you are lying to yourself.
•Nothing lasts forever except death, and I can't say I know that that lasts forever. No one can tell you that.
•I am in love with being in love.
•I have promised myself to never get married. Marriage is an institution. You don't need a piece of paper to say that you want to spend the rest of your life with someone. Society tells you that you do.
•Social networks are ruining our lives. Our abilities to be humans. To have relationships. To be trustworthy. To be trusting. To communicate without a screen.
•Television is rotting our minds.
•Whoever controls the media controls the mind.-Jim Morrision
•There is beauty even in the darkest places.
•I desire to be loved, truly loved at the deepest level more than anything.
•I am afraid of being insignificant.
•The word "hate" gives of negative fives and is pointless.
•If I were to use the word hate I would use it in regards to money.
•Humans are wretched.
•There is so much pain in the world that you need to cling to anything that makes you even remotely happy.
•I started cutting myself when I was 11z I just had my one year anniversary of the last time I self harmed. I will live with the desire to cut for the rest of my life. Like a druggie needing a fix, I will always be tempted.
•I am extremely passionate and sometimes extremely emotional. I feel things with great intensity.
This is who I am. I'm not going to write anymore because this is getting ridiculous. I've figured out so much about myself recently, I could write a book. I am proud of who I am. No one else can say they are me.
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